To end

IN A BANG

where will I be when the sirens call my name

On the top of the black mountain

SHOUTING MY NAME

hoping

that just maybe

the shouting stops

I know myself to be my savior, my martyr

I love myself not for myself

but because I have no choice

but to refrain from despising the vessel which my soul inhabits

my soul which inhabits my body

my mind which hates my heart

my heart, driven to insanity by my mind

I’m on the edge of the cliff of the black mountain

I come closer to the edge I never reach

I know not what to make of myself

I know not who to blame

I know not when to end this all

BUT I WANT THIS ALL TO END

Tell the sirens to travel to my solitude

My golden cage

Tell them to lure me to their traps

and I shall willingly be deceived

maybe at the end of my death

it will all end

in a bang